What did Cabo do to me?
Hey Faithers,
Hey Faither,
Faithers, I can not describe the feeling and experience I had. I have been back home for about two weeks now. If you did not know, HealingSheGotFaith headed to Los Cabo San Lucus for our first international speaking engagement. I have been trying to figure out the words to put to this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, from Jet Skiing to seeing Stingrays jump out of the water to finally parasailing, to being energized by the Pacific Ocean to speaking in front of a group of people about Grief. Cabo touched my soul. I haven't figured out exactly what it did or how to describe it. But earlier this week, I released a podcast (Check it out at HealingSheGotFaith.org/links) where I said I finally found the words for Cabo.
The words I finally came up with are that I could live in my healing and be authentically me. I did not have a care in the world about what anyone around me thought or had to say. I was able to dance like no one was looking. I was very comfortable in my skin. It was me. Since taking this healing journey very seriously, I have become more in tune with who I am. Being in therapy two times a week has helped me to crack the code on my insecurities. I've always felt like I was not good enough or not worthy enough. It seemed like I was always overlooked or never heard. I could be the brightest soul, yet no one would look my way. From researching my family origins, it seems like I've always been begging for attention. I just wanted someone to see me and love me. Yet, I was always doing to others what I wanted done for myself. I was overgiving, oversharing, and trying to do stuff for people because that's what I wanted to be done for me. It was a harsh reality. But in Cabo, I had my own Jr.Ocean Front Suite where I could be who I was, and I could dance on stage like no one was watching, I could be tipsy and not worry about who would judge me, and I could laugh loud and enjoy the company around. I did so much talking to strangers. I was not afraid to tell people I was there for work as a keynote speaker. I was proud to invite people to the conference and to say to people about my book. I was proud to be a social worker, but most importantly, to be me. I did not have to prove myself to anyone. I was accepted and heard. I challenged myself. I tried new things. I was open. I let loose. Cabo allowed me to enjoy who Lisa authentically is. This healed Lisa is something different. I can finally live in my purpose and love me the way I love the world.
I hope you, reading this, are doing the same thing. I love you.
Your Local Self-Love Advocate,
LeLe
