Be Comfortable with what we asked for
Hey Faithers,
Happy Wednesday! It is the Wednesday after July 4th. With everything going on in the world, I could not see how this country celebrated, but it is nice to get together and visit family and friends. I caught up with someone from college, and it was so lovely to be in the presence of someone with so much peace. I'll be honest; I stopped celebrating the 4th of July years ago. I cannot honor a holiday that says "land of the free," but they only meant white men. But that's just me.
Anyways, let's talk about peace. I have been in this 6-month healing challenge since April. I am currently in month 4. With so much going on, this country is reverting to the 1800s; vets are on the street, people are dying from depression and gun violence, and the government is hiding things from us; it can be hard to focus on self. This is why I made month four about having peace. I have been doing a lot of digging in my healing. I have discovered some hard truths about myself and my family origin. While it has been challenging and has kept me emotional, the truth is I needed it in order to heal truly. I declared this.
I believe that we always say we want something, and when the world makes it happen, we are confused. But I asked God to take people out of my life who were not meant for me; I asked God to give me friends who are protectors; I asked God to thicken my skin and allow the blinders to come off God for help. And that's exactly what happened. I had to realize that the people I lost were because one, I asked, and two, we each had our journey. If you listened to the podcast released this past Monday, our guest Marvin McQueen II and I discussed that sometimes when we lose people, it is not exactly toxic, but it is because we were not ready. One person I let go, I honestly did not have ill feelings towards him, but I knew we weren't one another forever. I knew in our interactions that we probably should have just stayed friends. He was healing, and so was I. But we could not heal together. There was a lack of boundaries. There was growth. I had to do what was best for me and exit. This was one of the most challenging situations I've had to walk away from. But as I entered my healing journey, the blinders for many people started to come off. The blinder for people I looked up to came off.
In these three short months, a lot has come about. I had to decide to invest in my healing. In this month 4, I want to focus on being at peace with what has happened. I want to make an effort to know that I asked for this. I want to be at peace with no longer people pleasing and no longer over-extending myself for people who would never! I want to thank you for showing up and being here! I love you! I want you to love you the way you love the world! Let's take these last months of 2022 and focus on being at peace with ourselves.
Your Self-Love Advocate,
LeLe
