You are Human
Hey, Faither's Happy Wednesday! I hope you have taken time for yourself and been loving and catering to you. Recently, I have been doing a lot of reflection. I have loved myself more than ever. I love myself in a way that I never thought I could. As I've healed, I have seen my prayers answered. It has happened slowly, but it has happened. As I talk more to people, I realize that healing is not easy. The experience I am having with healing is changing my outlook on life. This brings me to the topic today. Today I want to talk about us being human. What does being human have to do with anything? No matter how much we heal, practice positivity, or try our best, we are still human; we still have human interactions. We have emotions. We have more emotions than happy, sad, or mad. Our bodies store traumas. Did you know that our bodies remember stuff that we went through? As I have healed, I have changed a lot. This is part of life. I have to relearn myself and become comfortable with who I am.
I have healed and am doing daily work; just today, I took myself on a date. I love this but guess what? I still struggle with anger and irritation. I become so aggravated. I am working on realizing what is keeping me irritated. One thing that I have had to become okay with is that I am irritated right now. I have not figured out or pinpointed what is triggering that. So, right now, I must embrace that and learn myself. I must know that what I am feeling is an emotion we all have and is natural. In my healing, I am coming to terms with that there is such thing as positivity or spiritual gaslighting. Many people will tell you to think positive or pray about something or that you're overthinking, but in reality, we have moments and seasons where life sucks. The last two years of my life have not been my winning season. While I've accepted my part, the emotions that I have to allow me to say, "this sucks." And life-sucking at times is okay! We have to be okay that not everything will always work out. As a human, I want you to know that you are worthy, but I also want you to trust yourself. Sometimes you have something to say, and people try to tell you how you feel. You have to trust yourself even when other people do not trust you. You are the expert of your life. You are worthy enough to trust yourself. No one will ever be able to take your experience away. You're okay to feel how you feel. Be present at the moment. Sit with yourself and continue to learn, even when it does not make sense to anyone else. Today I want you to recognize that you are human, and you are welcome to feel how you feel. You are human, and that is okay!
I love you, but I want you to love you the way you love the world.
Your self-love advocate,
LeLe