Reflection of Month 5: Month 5=Month of Gratitude
Hey Faithers! Happy Wednesday! Happy Last day of August! Wow! August has come and gone! I am in awe as I enter Month 6 of this Healing Journey. This has been such a good month. Some may not know, but I started this six-month journey based on two Tik Tok Videos. I used their guidance and then added my spin to it. This month I practiced gratitude every day. Month 5 was the easiest month by far. As I reflect, I've noticed that August of 2022 has been one of the best and most positive months I have had in a long time. I did not have a lot of sad and depressive episodes, but I had some days where all I needed was rest, and I went that.
August was busy for me, but the business did not bother me for the first time in a long time. I was not overstimulated or overwhelmed, but I was at peace. I was not rushed, I was not worried about money, and other people did not bother me. I was able to step into "team Lisa" and advocate for me. Spending these last couple of months with just myself has helped me relearn myself and dig deep. One of the things that I have struggled with throughout my whole life was comparing myself and who I am to others. In the day and age of social media, I am constantly seeing other people and what they are doing and comparing myself. Recently, I have been getting a lot of feedback on my podcast and who I am.
I am honored but honestly, what people are attracted to is authenticity. Being able to slow down has been peaceful for me. I have been one who is always busy and yet still felt like I was not doing enough. But recently, because of gratitude, I have been able to take a step back and start being grateful for myself and everything I have going on. Experiencing this peace, I believe I am the healthiest I have been. Month 5 of gratitude has been a month where I realized that I am who I am. I will not fit in. I can not match the people on Instagram.
I know where I lack. I know my strengths. What works for others does not work for me. I have to be unapologetic, and for those who can't keep up or follow through, we don't match. Everyone is not my cup of tea, and I am not everyone's. I have realized that I can admire people and not fully agree with them; that does not make me or them good or bad. I have been finding the balance between being quiet and advocating. I deserve to speak up for myself the way I do for others. Finding myself through this journey has been an experience; I have seen myself transform. I am not the same person I was on April 1, even last month. I started to notice things about myself, such as energy, speaking, resting, and eating. My body started to feel much better. My curls were more vibrant, and my energy was like never before. It has been amazing to watch.
My biggest lesson has been not to get caught up in the comparison game. I can’t get caught up with what others say. Recently, my team at HealingSheGotFaith and some friends have told me that I’m “the famous” friend and will be so successful. So many have come to me and said, “there’s the millionaire of the group!” Wow! I have to look at them and say, “y’all view me as the millionaire?” That’s such an honor! And I have to be grateful for that! I have had to be honest with them and give them my authentic self. I’ve had to sit here and be honest with myself but be grateful! Month 5 has permitted me to be me. Month 5 has allowed me to be thankful for the permission. Month 5 of gratitude has been easy and peaceful! I hope that you can see this and be grateful for yourself. You deserve it!
I encourage you to use affirmations!
Say these to you for the next the 30 days, and journal or document in some way your thoughts and processes!
Gratitude Affirmations:
I am grateful for me
I permit myself to feel
I am aware that I have to feel to heal
I am allowing myself to grieve and live through grief
I am grateful for love and support
I am thankful for the ones who have shown up
I love me
I love you, but I want you to love you the way you love the world!
Your self-love advocate,
LeLe
